too soon

so, i knew that this would happen, and that sooner or later, one of the boys would get sick and i would be over here, and not only unable to do anything about it, but at the mercy of everyone there to keep me updated and to shower love and affection on my behalf (which, i have to add, i have NO doubt of their ability to do. i just want to be the one doing the showering). so, i've been home for just over a week, and golf is sick. i got an email saturday night saying that he was quarantined, and that they were hoping that it wasn't TB, that it was just a really bad case of pneumonia, and today i get more mail saying that he's getting better (thank God) but that now apilak is sick, and he's way more frail. so now two of my boys are sick, and there's literally nothing i can do about it, except worry. it feels like worrying over there would be more productive than worrying over here. worrying there, i could cuddle and hold and joke and make laugh, i would be in the know, i would feel connected and useful. worrying here, i just worry. and pray. and ask others for prayer. so if you all could pray for my boys, they're sickly. i hope to have happier updates soon.